sunny days-cute baybay

he is too cute for words.

winter.
by February I am done with it all.
but those few, crisp, sunny afternoons
do leave us with beautiful memories.

praying for a miracle.

it is too much to ask?
isn't it ask and you shall recieve?

okay.
I won't ask for the miracle - to expect it.
but for the grace to accept.

but isn't it expect a miracle?

Please God.
I ask
and expect
whatever is to come....

quotes

Let no young man choosing the law for a calling for a moment yield to the popular belief -- resolve to be honest at all events; and if in your own judgment you cannot be an honest lawyer, resolve to be honest without being a lawyer. --Abraham Lincoln: July 1, 1850



Miss Agnes didn't think school was just for kids
"You have to keep learning all your life" she said.
That was a good thing to think about, always learning something new. It wasn't like you had to hurry up and learn everything right away before the learning time was over, it was like you could kind of relax and take your time and enjoy it.

~ From THE YEAR OF MISS AGNES
by Kirkpatrick Hill


"Mama? I have cof dwof?..... My fwote is dwy"
~Clark

Lucille: Don’t you judge me. You’re the selfish one. You’re the one who charged his own brother for a Bluth frozen banana. I mean, it’s one banana, Michael. What could it cost, ten dollars?

Michael: You’ve never actually set foot in a supermarket, have you?”

25 things

1

if I could meet any character from the Office it would be Angela. I think it would be funny to have her be mean to me...

2

I have wonderful friends. alot of the things I was going to share were already written by people who tagged me. gee. thought I was origional! well, I guess I know why I'm friends with you guys!

3

I come from a big family. becuase of that people have always assumed I would have lots of kids. well, currently pregnant with #4 so I guess that is considered lots. not sure how many kids we will have though. never wanted to put a number on it. one at a time is all I can focus on!

4

I really like Dr. Pepper. but drinking pop is hard for me. there are too many bubbles. I always hiccup after the first sip.

5

I learn way more from teaching my children then I ever thought I would.

6

I love being an aunt and godmother almost as much as being a mother. children as so amazing. I know all the best ones!

7

four years after buying it I still can't beleive we own a house.

8

I was married young. 19.

9

I have been mistaken for my teenage brother.
so I guess that means I look like a boy.
I have also been mistaken for his mother.
so I guess that means I look older then I am.
I am an older then I am boyish looking woman.
but Darryl still says I'm pretty. and his is the only opinion that matters really.

10

I think I like Avatar even more then Daniel - but I coud never let him know that.

11

don't like video games much. 'cept Dr. Mario. which I can waste several hours playing.

12

if I had enough money I would replace every peice of furniture in my house. 'cept the baby cradle.

13

our baby cradle (which I love) usually ends up holding the baby clothes - instead of the baby. we always cosleep, family bed, whatever you want to call it, with our babies. I don't care what others say - I know it is the best place for my baby to be.

14

I like to have people over because it forces me to clean up the house. other wise...well...I'm a terrible house keeper.

15

I like to have people over becuase I like to be around people all the time.

16

I'm not really into animals. there have been a few exceptions. I'm hoping the baby coming will get rid of my childrens desire for a pet

17

I have a hard time spending money on myself, but no problem at all spending it on others.

18

I am an NFP instructor with my husband.
I think it is the most beautiful natural way to live and plan our family and I am so blessed to have a husband that agrees with me.

19

I love music. certain songs make me cry everytime I hear them. I get very excited when I find a new artist/band that I like and don't understand when the people I share it with don't get as excited by it as I do.

20

I don't think I'm a very nice person. sorry.

21

I miss our old Casio camera that was stolen. it has been 18 months, we have a new camera, but I still think about my old one.

22

I love the water.I grew up by it and I have a very hard time with the fact that my children are living in town without forrests and hills and lakes outside their door.

23

I wore the same shirt for school pictures every year of highschool. I'm such a dork. it seemed cool at the time.

24

I love to garden. I wasted many years thinking that I couldn't do it. I have no patience for reading books on it. but once I finally did it I discovered that things grow! pretty easily actually. but I think flower gardens are a waste of time. I only want to spend my time and money on something that will give a return. veggies are the way to go. but I do have a patch of flowers in front of the house. to create the illusion that I care. and I think my neighbours expect it.


25

I know in my heart that there is a God. many things going on in the world today make me sad for us as the human race. we need to love more. I know I need to love more.

september 2007

baby sister, baby

what is real love?
what is true strength?
what is pure beauty?
I was a witness to them today.
the overwhelming power of love, of strength, of beauty.

life.

it doesn't come easily (although her calm grace made it seem so!)
but it comes from love, with strength.
Life is pure beauty.

happy birthday Evita Rose Elizabeth

for the love of reading/ September 2007

he got up from the couch
read the last word from the book, zebra, just before closing it and tossing it on the coffee table, void of coffee, spilling over with more books
and then he let out a little laugh
followed by a very content sigh

even at age six
a good book is a good book!

tomatoes / December 2007

"I wonder why I don't like tomatoes?....They ARE my favorite colour....I guess they are just too squishy."
~Cadence Everett


I want to be five again.
I love having the honour of being Cadence's mother.
but sometimes...I wish I was her little peer...
I wonder how differently I would see her.

She is so very matter-of -fact.
but so free with her love giving.
I want to be five again...unaware of my ability to withhold love.

My daughter is a miracle.
everyday I see
more and more
"such a person"

a brother uncle/ Feb 2008

"sometimes after Sean leaves from visiting
I feel like I am floating in outter space- without a jet pack
so I can't get anywhere..."

~Daniel Everett

how is it that my six year old can express his feelings in such a beautiful sciencefictionay way as to make me say "yes, that is exactly how I feel"
except not just when Sean leaves, but all those I love.

you have to admit Daniel has come a long way from the crying screaming melt downs he use to have when Sean walked out the door, he is much more poetic these days...

we were recently talking about how times flies, how Sean use to be Daniel, ...the little guy who use to run to me each day as I got off the bus from school, the little boy I missed so much while away at college that all I ever wanted to do was come home and visit . the boy who I had to stop picking up and carrying around once I was pregnant with my own child, Sean was about ten at the time...I guess ten year olds don't need to be carried around really anyways...

now Sean is, well, much taller then me, and in a couple more years will be out on his own...and Daniel will be the "big cousin" that everyone climbs on...weird.

I need to get a jet pack

air drums in the van

couch buddies at Christmas

everyone's favorite uncle (sorry other uncles - you are all tied for a close second though...)

always willing to play

always willing to love

Written Feb 2008

"Raising children is presented at first as a true-false test, then
becomes multiple choice, until finally, far along, you realize that it
is an endless essay."

Anna Quindlen,
Newsweek Columnist and Author


I like this.
I can't even count the number of times I thought maybe we were doing it all "wrong".... I see now after a few years of trying to get it "right" that there are so many ways to raise a child.
Each child deserves to be raised as an individual,
we try our best to do what is "the right
way"
and it's hard,
but wonderful, so wonderful to watch a child grow!

Three children call me Mama.
Each of them with different needs and desires.
I pray for the strength to know how to give them each what they need.
to show them the right kind of love
to work together with their Dada in showing true love, and confidence, forgiveness, patience, kindness, compassion and faith.

Writing three essays at once is time consuming! But I am in no rush to be done.
If I don't have time to do this with my children, will they have time for me?
I thank God for the proof readers in my life, our parents and incredible siblings, cousins and so many wonderful friends. For your encouragement, wisdom, support, and love. Know that I am always here for you the same way you have been for me. AN d of course praise God for my writing partner Darryl! Who is by far the most creative and patient, loving, and hilarious person I know. The father of our family, the one who first brought the joy.

I hope to finish our essays with a smile on my face, and (at least ;) ) three pairs of once little arms around my shoulders, loving me despite any failures, loving me because I tried my best to love them.

Thank you God
forever thank you.

christmas goofs

like darry in so many ways...except one loves to mow the lawn and the other hates it.

Sora our sweet love

planting one on mom...
still doesn't mind kissing his mommy on the lips.

Evita our little treasure

Auntie Alisha with Daniel

Grandma Patti with our kids and the other "big" cousin, Erik.

our darling Kai

Della Sunshine

Gabriel our "first love" and Joshua and Jasmine.

Clark's quote of the day; · September 28th, 2008

"I airbended my snot back in my nose!"


someone has been watching a bit too much Avatar...

ahhhhhhh FrEaK oUt!!!

how can I be such a utter failer at everything I do?
today ends lacking.
it lacked that patience I told myself to have.
the love
the honesty.

I feel totally under a large blanket of pressure.
a spirtiual attack?
perhaps.
yes
but I can't blame my behavior on others.
cant' say the devil made me do it.
I know that only I can make me do.

and I let it all happen today.

but,
children are so loving
so forgiving

I recognize my critical nature comes from the home I grew up in.
and yet I am *fairly* well adjusted and secure.
so too, I hope, my children will look back and see the joy
the love
the fun times.

please don't hang on the mistakes.
please know that under the freak out loose it mom is an I love you more than words can express mom
you are worthy
and beautiful.